candymandy46 (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} candymandy46) wrote,@ 2009-11-08 15:32:00 |
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| Current location: | Grandpas |
| Current mood: |  blah |
| Current music: | What it's like- Everlast |
| Entry tags: | aunt joanne, car, chase, grandpa, jenn, julie, katelin, ryan |
They can't make you laugh, no they can't make you feel the way that I do
Oh I
I packed this bowl for two
And I
I’m gonna wanna smoke it with you.
So today was all spiff and I felt fine up until like 2 hours ago. idk wtf is wrong with me... I just got really down. It doesn't even make sense cause I really have nothing to be sad about. So why do I feel like shit? I hate days like this. Maybe I'm finally about to get my period. Ha. I wish... well... I don't WISH I had it... it's just be nice so that I wont have to worry about when it's gunna come again for a while. Blah Blah BLAHHHHHHHHHH.
Yes you know it is time
For us to sit down and unwind
I know the feeling, I know the feeling
So stay with me tonight
Gonna kick back relax
Make sure the ganja’s packed
I want some weed. I need to go find Carlos and buy some. Too bad I'm broke D: So i'll just wait and hit a bowl with some friends later today if they smoke. Or wait till I get home tomorrow and smoke a bowl then. I just wanna lay in my bed, cuddle my pillow and... lay. Just lay there. But at the same time, I wanna go outtttt and I wanna be social and I wanna hang out with my friendssss! Why am I so lameee today. Jeebus. I need to stop this shit. It's annoying. Oh and I left my hat at Becca's. It isnt even really my hat, it's Addisons lol. SO yeah. Gotta get that tomorrow probably. I'll have to see when Becca will be home or if she can run it buy or someeeeeething. Oh heavens.
And we’ll feel all right
We’re flying high now
We’re flying high now
I cannot feel the ground
We’re flying high now
We’re flying high now
I'm going to Aunt Joannes the weekend of the 20th. My Nana wants me, her, My great Aunt Rita, Aunt Mary and Aunt Joanne to all go out to lunch that sat. I'm excited. Havnt seen Aunt Rita in a while and I miss my Nana. I feel bad cause I love my Nana to death but I never go visit her cause I fucking HATE my little cousins there. I used to go over there more often when I had Kieran cause they always wanted to see him too and so I could sit there and play with Kieran the whole weekend and not have to worry about being asked to go play with my little cousins. I know it sounds mean but if you met these kids. God, I swear. If they were my own kids... there is NO way in hell they would get away with what they do. It takes all I have to not smack Ryan across the mouth when he talks to me and his mom and nana. The first words out of his mouth to me the last time I was there were "You're a bitch!" and he stomped around the house cause I had brought Julie with me and he didnt like that apparently. Well I couldnt give two fucks as to what he thinks. He is 11 years old, there is no reason for him to act the way he does. And Katelin... Oh don't just... I'm done talking about them. They are obnoxious brats who need a reality check. The end.
My world is spinning round
So please don’t run away
When my ganja’s all gone
Promise me that you’re gonna stay
When my flight is all done
There’s only one thing left to do
I do miss my nana though. I go over to my aunt Joannes and its nice cause nana can come over there without having to bring katelin and ryan and even if they do all come over, Ryan and Katelin know better than to act up over there cause Aunt Joanne and Uncle Craig dont put up with their shit. Which is good cause then they actually behave. Ugh. W/E. I'm excited for New Moon as well. SOOOO excited =] Ugh this day sucks. Yesterday I took Julie and Chase's homecoming pictures for them over at Devin's. Chase was a little drunk when I picked him up to take him over to Devin's. Lol, we walked around the park cause Julie wasnt ready yet. Chase and I talked times a million about everything. His mom is really mad at him for lying to his whole family saying he was in Florida when he is really here in MD. I knew they'd find out somehow. But o'well. It was cool to chill with Chase. Plus when we got to Devin's, Julie was talking to all her friends there whom Chase and I dont know at all. [[Except Devin]] and so I stuck around a little longer so that Chase wouldnt be by himself. Julie was being dumb though... like usual. Chase asked me to tighten the buttons on the sleeve of his shirt and Julie was like "CHASE! Why didnt you ask ME to do it!?" I was like "Whoa, chill out girl." But after that, idk she chilled out. The group was getting ready to sit down and eat dinner so I left. Devin asked me to stay but... Meh. I did that whole homecoming thing already and I didnt really feel like sitting there with these kids I don't know. Wow. Longest paragraph of my life. OKEH. I'm done updating this... I lied. I'm not.
I got this one nug this frosty purple nug
And it’s big enough for two
BTW, love that song. Bowl for Two by The Expendables. So new topic. I miss the fuck out of Jenn. Not the new Jenn but the old Jenn. MY Jenn. I miss back when we were best friends and she could always come to me for anything and I always had her to go to. I miss how close we were and how so comfortable we were with each other. I miss when she would run away to my house just because she needed me.
Holding your hand,
I'm thrown in all directions.
When I put my arm around your waist,
There are no objections.
As I walk you to your door,
I look into your eyes
And for now I know you love me,
Because your actions tell no lies.
Yeah, I guess what brought this on was that I listened to this old mix CD she made me in HS and I read through all my old myspace blogs and came across the poem jount she wrote for me. So that's what the italic part of this is now. Ugh I miss driving around with her in her van and going everywhere just for fun. I really wish I still had her. I had her for about 2 hours last time we had a sleepover at my house. We were laying in bed and just talking. Talking about EVERYTHING that was going on and what was happening since we had last had a talk like that. She cried, that's the Jenn I used to know. She was so comfortable opening up to me and I felt the same way about her. And that night, when we went to sleep, she snuggled up to me just like we used to. I wanted to cry lol. I missed her so much and the old Jenn was there for a little bit.
And I give to you, Mandy,
The devotion I feel inside...
When sweat trickles down your brow
And I taste your lips on mine.
When your skin's touch is that of fire
And my eyes belong to you alone,
When you tell me that you love me,
And we fall into the unknown.
When I hold your hands,
I know that this moment will last forever.
I think she wrote this poem for me during that time when we were like ish... like... wanted to legit be together. It was the weirdest thing to like your best friend who is a girl. She was probably the first girl I had a crush on. But that never did anything. We were silly to think that way. I liked us better as friends and that's all I wanted from her. That's STILL all I want from her. Is to be friends but she is so busy with work and shes moving to Bowie which is kinda far from here. So chances of seeing her are slim. But that's probably okay because even if I did see her, she wouldnt be my Jenn. She'd be the new Jenn. Which is lame btw. She was just fine before.
Hands are no longer held back,
They touch what they adore.
Each new sound creates
A longing for even more.
When skin collides, it burns,
With a bittersweet loving chime...
One for us to breathe beneath
And for our bodies to mime.
We're twisted up, you and I,
Artlessly seductive.
To go against inheritance,
Menacingly destructive.
Rawr. Grandpa kinda looked at my car today. I told him what was wrong with it and he comes back inside and asks me to go out and look at it. Uhm. If I knew how to fix what was wrong with it, I would have done that myself. But I went outside anyways and looked at all the fuses and crap. The radio started working though lol so w/e we did was beneficial somehow. Uhm. My turn signals still dont work and the car still surges so grandpa is sending me to the boy who works on my car to talk to him and see whats up with this crap.
And I give to you, Mandy,
The devotion I feel inside...
When sweat trickles down your brow
And I taste your lips on mine.
When your skin's touch is that of fire
And my eyes belong to you alone,
When you tell me that you love me,
And we fall into the unknown.
Our hearts race and intertwine,
A symphony takes flight,
Leaving you and I forever...
A story for us to write.
When I hold your hands,
I know that this moment will last forever.
Blah. Friends are on the way. I gotta go. Probably a good thing cause I dont need to whine and complain anymore lol.
